oh god I hate decmeber

so i don’t think i can go up to erics cabin anymore,

the last four times I’ve been up there, there was some problem that prevented me from getting back.  be it normal ski country traffic, road clourses or just slow ass drivers. 

this time is was acombination of road clourses, slow ass drivers, and my GPS system wanting to find the shortest distance between two points, 

yes, it snowed while I was up there, it was a blizzard at times, but the measly two two three inches of snow wheren’t a challenge to my four inches of groung clearance of to my newly fited (but probably more than seven year old) snow tires.  i was cursing along at~40~70 mph (the speed limt was 45) untill I’d come up on a another car, I’d try to pass, and eventually get by.  untill I got to the other side of the mountain,  where I couldn’t pass (not safely at least) so I turged down the mountain at some amazing figure of like 20mph avg. 

and then I got to the highway,  I was passing people on the right, but I was only going the speed limt, and it was good.

till they closed the highway.

I was so tempted to drive around the car that was blocking it, there was plenty of room in both sides, and no one in it. but i didn’t.  at this point I was only about 1.5 hours behind schudle.  it took the next hour to get to the 119/us 6 cut off.  I took the 119. 

and did just fine along it, inspite of the fact that the speed limit was roughly the speed I was going. 

and then I was stupid and followed my gps system, the same system that clocked me at 500_ mph earler in the trip (really, It was going along maybe a mile east of highway 40 at speeds of 200+ for at least a 1/4 hour before it started acting up, speefs of 400+ going in random diections)

but I took a long long way home, which wouldn’t have been that bad, except the driver in frount of me couldn’t manage more than 15 for a good 18 miles.  (on the road I wanted there were passing zones, no such luck on this road) and when I finially got down, and turned to take the road home, it was closed.

It’s shit like this that makes me hate lving here. I could have been home in 2.5 hours even actiting for the traler driver over the pass.  but instead it took me nearly five hours, and before you tell me it was my getting off course, that actually singifigantly improved my time till i got caught behind the driver who couldn’t got more than 15…

 

I really hope I get the job inspecting winearys in cali.

 

NP ivy, god I hate december

Its getting cold all aver again, so I´ll be inside way too much again.

So I didn’t get the job up in portland.

and it sucks, that was a job which i really wanted and I thought the interview went really well, I asked the right questions, and answered the questions to the best I could.  and I didn’t get the job. 

but I’m not giving up.  I got a couple of other interviews I’ve done or have comeing up, one for a temp postion with the department of veterns up in spokanne, on for a RO postion in missippi which I really hope I get because there is 16K in per diem on the line for that one, they’ll pay me some 16K just to go to kanas city for a four month period.  16K to not spend the winter in colorado.  though I don’t know how much warmer mo is,  but it’s got to be a bit warmer. and tueplo ms is pretty cheap to live, 100K will buy a nice house…

and I bought a couple of books on interviewing technquie to read though as well.  but the thing is, I haven’t had anything exceiting come along, well the job up in mn would be pretty cool, 32 hours a week, and I’d still make enough to live, but I don’t know about driving 30 miles each way…

oh well. 

NP texas is the reason.  nickel wound

keep on rolling, just a mile to go, keep on rolling, my old budy your moving much to slow

So I’ve got an interview in portland for a systems analyist job.  I haven’t got a clue what a systems analyist does, but it’s another potienial job. 

 So I not only need a new temperuture sensor for my car, I also need a culch  :( It happened on the way back from windsor and the car wouldn’t go over a hundered, it would do between 95 and 105 but wouldn’t go any faster, the cutch was slipping.  it happened again today on my way home. I wasn’t even speeding this time.  so there goes yet another weekend, I hope I can get it changed in a weekend.  but that will have to wait for next weekend, the weekend will be spent putting in the temp sendor so it will pass emssions, the idle has to be low enough for them to check it, I don’t spend much time at idle, so it didn’t matter to me.  but it would be great if it also fixed the cold start problem so i didn’t have to care around a can of exploisve to get it started.  But i do sort of like it as an anti theft measure:)

i was wondering it anyone else finds it just amazing that in the motorcycle section of craglist it lists, things like a 06 zx10r (200 mph bike) right next to a fat people  chair? you know the ones that fat people have to get around on because their to lazy to walk.  I would have thought that there would be an area for those, maybe medical sypilies? but nope they see fit to have them in with the bikes. 

 

NP: jack straw, the greatful dead

I know I should get next to you, you’ve got a look that made me think your cool, but it’s just sexual attraction, that’s all there is, so I’d rather keep wackin, why bother, it’s gona hurt me, it’s gonna kill when you desert me,

the thing is with my attemps at realationships, I don’t want to live anywhere near here anymore. and everyone i meet act’s as thought denver is the best thing ever.

it’s not.

thought if you are the sort of person who like to brag that they love going snowboarding, but actually hates going snowboarding, the sort of person who loves camping, but hates to be our amoungst  the bugs, and you actully expect me to sleep on the ground? then denver is the perfect place for you.

but that’s not me.  i don’t care what the ground is like where i sleep, I’d hope it’s roughly flat, but anything more is just iceing. and if I’m going to spend $50 on a lift ticket, I’d better be there from the first lift ride to the last, none of this show up at noon and be off of the mountain by 2:30 bull shit.

so hence denver doesn’t really suit me.

I want to move somewhere where people are at least honest. 

yes I like going to coffee shops and talking about movies more than I like going to see them, and I love going and talking about concerts, but I don’t enjoy most of the ones I’ve been to. and I can admit it too, most of us can’t.  I can’t stand living here anymore. 

and I know it won’t be any different anywhere else.

but that’s why I have chosen to hate my home state at the moment. but it’s not even like that, I don’t mind granby, or grand juction, or glennwood springs, because for some reason, I don’t get that same vibe from being there.  I did get it in vail/beaver creek/ avon.  but when I stopped to buy a iron to make sure my shirt was good for my interview, in glennwood springs,  I was amazed at the amount of actual punks at the laocal target super center.   real punks, not the hot topic fake punks like you see ever so often around here.

and grand juction it was much the same, the people with pickup trucks were, (mostly) the people who actually needed them for something, not for the “my dick’s way to small so I over compensate with a big ass truck that never even goes on a dirt road” or the ever more common, “I want my kid to be safe so I’m going to buy the biggest thing I can”

NP weezer

don’t think twice, it’s all right

I’ve been wondering now, for instance is it ok for me to lead these women on, when I’m certainly going to be moving somewhere before the summers ending? 

I mean it’s not like I’m promssing that I’m going to stick around, but it’s sort of implied by my very being on match.com.  I mean boulder/denver is the prefect place right? that’s what everyone is telling me, and no one pays any attention to any of my complaints, it never rains, it’s too fucking cold in the winter… that’s really all I’ve got, but combine them… you’ve got way more damage caused by the appilication of rocks in the winter than you’ve got by the frozen roads.  and in the summer, it felt like i drank a good 2 quarts of water after climbing ncar, maybe five hundered feet.  maybe three miles I traveled today, and I felt like I took in maybe two quarts of water extra.  2 quarts of water for maybe three miles of walking?

and yet I seem to be the only person who doesn’t want to be here any more.  

but it’s not like bend will be any better, bend with it’s 13″ of rain is even worse than denver/bouder (14.7),  man I’m wishing I get the job in ga. 

 

bob dylan, don’t think twice it’s all right

headed for another coast line, again, we don’t belong here, now, they should shoot us looking down

so a question was asked of me, which coast line, and by that which occean do I prefer.

and this is somewhat of a quandry for me.  I mean I know I should prefer the western, the pacfic coast. 

but I don’t.  I have stood on the santa monica peir some 150 meters out over the occean, and I was unable to smell the occean, just 10 meters up and I was unable to smell the occean.  I was standing in the swells up in oregon and I don’t really recall the smell of the occean. I don’t remeber it from either of the two times I’ve been in the pacfic northwest. 

and yet, I remeber It from my grandmothers house some 80+ miles from the nearest seashore, ever so faitly, but it was there. I remeber it every time at my other grandmothers house. i remeber waking from bed soaked in it.  having to brush the salt of my skin in the middle of winter, and being barley able to breath through it in 103 degrees and raining in the summer.the ever so brilant smell, or taste of salt, sea salt on the air. 

the thing that gets me though, is i don’t really recall that taste in florida.  but at the same time I don’t not remeber it.  and to tell the turth, I think not remebering it would be a whole lot stronger than remebering “it smells like salt and water because we are near the occean”

so at this point, with out a bit more experiance to the carbian, I would have to say the atlantic, I’m not really sure over the carbian, but by far over the pacfic.

this only compairs the coastlines I have actually been to, I’m sure the dalmation coast would kick the ass of any I’ve seen so far….

 

on a more positive note, I have an interview for a posistion in bend or, and I can take the job with the imigration services as I have 48/20 vison and two pairs of glasses that cost me roughly a paycheck ($760 for four little pices of plastic and metal frames, it seems like i’m being ripped off)

 

 

NP 764-hero, coastline

not in our name

I should be happy, I’ve finially got some interveiws, some leads on a new job, I’m turning thirty tomarrow to,

but i’m not happy.  And I’m not really sure why.

I finially got out of the house and exericeised today, Had a nice little hike with ryan.    Co really is beatufiull this time of year.  I have the day off tomarrow, and I’ve got an interveiw at nist, right accross from my old house,  I’ve still got the job up in eststes park too, she still hasn’t made a discion on that one either.  I am currently with out a motor bike, but there is this one that keeps poping up on cragslist that is the excat same as mine for $1500, and a new one isn’t out of the question either, 10K can buy a really nice bike….

 

in retrospect, I actually am starting to have enjoyed going to cali, I wouldn’t want to do it again or anything, but more so than the I’m glad I went, I’m actually glad I was forced (it was my best friends wedding, I had to go) to go.   and I’m stil extoridnarrily happy for you, and for your bride, anyone who wears chuck talors to her own (traditional) wedding is ok in my book:)

but i’m still unhappy.  maybe I just need to get laid?

 

NP not in our name, DJ spooky

I can’t tell you anything, you don’t already know

The thing I don’t like about cali, at least southern ca, is the cars.  driveing around out there, it seems like a porche is an everyday car, a lambo wasn’t uncomon, ferraris were everywhere. 

but on some of the nicer roads, which ca is loaded with, there wasn’t nice car to be seen.  well, there was an exige, but that’s is.  on probably 100 miles of twisty moutain roads, I saw one denct car.  I say sh*t loads of bikes, on one of the nicer roads, mullhuland hwy, all I saw were bikes, probably 30 miles of nothing but bikes.  not a single car anywhere.   but just the same, not a single nice car, with that one exception.

the loud as hell lambo? pulling in the shopping lot accross from the hotel, he’s bipping the throttle because he bought a slushbox, and autos suck, they suck even more on cars like lambos.  that beatuiful Z car, parked in someones drive, the ferrari 430, parked in front of the club.  the regular bmw? stuck in traffic on a sunday afternoon. 

of the 500-1000 cars parked along topnaga cayon road for the fesival? not one nicer than a mustang.  not a single one. 

it seems like such a nice car place, the weather is beautiful, there isn’t much salt in the air, there shouldn’t be much to worry about other than the CHP, and the CARB people, I mean people there make plenty of money to be able to afford such cars, (along that road there probably wasn’t a single house wothless than 1.5 mil) but they don’t chose to use them at all. 

that, and there are just to many of them, way way to many people everywhere you look.  which wasn’t a surpize at all, but the fact that i found some amazing roads, and no one was using them for their intended prupose was a sirpize.  not even mike, who used to talk about the roads with a bit of a reverance, back in high school and college, I didn’t even see his old clapped out beratta driving those roads on the fine weekend days. 

it was quite a disappointment, after reading and hearing about it for the last fifteen years.

NP: GVB, Acorns & Orioles

Marines, police, reporters ask wherefore and why

I don’t really know why I haven’t felt the urge to write any thing recontly, But I haven’t. 

So whats new? Well I actually got an interview for a job up in estes park, It’s the very same amount of money I’m making now, plus an extra grand once I’ve been with the feds a year.  so thats ok, I don’t know. Why I’m so  excited to actually get the job. but I am.  that said, I proably won’t get it.  just as I have zero idea of what a HR assistant does.

and the most exciting part was just hearing back from one of the jobs I had applied to.  finally I got a responce

But the weather has been so wonderfull here lately. It almost makes me not want to leave, bt then I remeber it’s been about a week, and it will last another couple of weeks before everything dies off. 

but i’ve got another 8.5 days to go on the phones before I can quit.  and believe me, I am looking around for another job. checker is hiering for delivery drivers, and I was so tempted to apply there.  But not for around about three weeks.  Not untill after june 8th

NP:omc, how bizarre

broken heart beats sound like break beats

so i figured out whats wrong with my bike:

you see that part that’s not there? yeah the rod went through the block.  I don’t have a clue why though.  So now I’m to start looking for another bike, or a repalcement engine.  so if you happen to know anyone with  a yamaha fj1100 or fj1200 (they are the same sized on the outside) let me know. 

so anyway, i’ve got the week off now. i was planning on going somewhere, any where. but I’m still here.  why? well I’ve got a test, to become a customs and boarder patorl person on thus.   and thinking back, I haven’t really had a good time in the vast majority of trips xcross county I’ve taken.  I mean it’s enormous fun to bomb along to new york, spending a mear 30 hrs, but it’s not really fun once you’ve done it.  it’s much more fun to leave here on a sat, and not have to be anywhere till wed,  I toured the south, stopping of everywhere I found interesting, and I remeber pretty much all of it.  and yet I don’t remeber the trip back, not one bit.  so i decided not to waste my time, Instead I am going to work on my car.  and go to the gym. and do other stuff that i’ve been meaning to do for months. and maybe by a motor for my bike…