all of the damms will give, at the end, at the end of the world, will you swim for me?

So there is this girl i’ve been going out with for a couple of weeks.   i met her online, and she seems nice and everthing,

but there in may lie the problem, we’ve only gone out  four times, once to walk around denver, once to see a movie, and twice to watch a video at her place.  I know, far from entertaining dates, but she agreed to my idea of meeting at coffee shop,  so i’ve gone along with her ideas for watching movies and so on. 

and she has really crappy taste in movies, (and books i think, i’ve never read any james patterson, but then she has never read any hemingway or stienbeck) but when we get wanted and a cartoon about robots in love in the future, and the cartoon is much more believable? (it was wall-e, my suggestion) and the movie we went to see at the theater? four xmases.  it was horrible.  but she accepted the movie i wanted to see, nausica of the valley of the wind (a miziaki movie, it was playing at the esquire at midnight, unfourtunataly dubbed into english, it wasn’t bad except for captain picard) but she went and claims to have had a good time.  I mean that’s worth a load of horrible movies.  

but here’s the problem, I don’t think she’s attracted to me in the least, and it’s not totally her fault.  I’m not all that attracted to her either.  I mean she’s plenty hot, though far from a model, the type of girl i usually find really hot.  but not really in this case.  but that’s ok, i can work around it.  I mean she didn’t mind seeing a miziaki movie, even seemed to enjoy it,  but here’s the problem, wehen we were watching wall-e, a movie about a robot who falls in love, his whole disire in the world is to hold hands with the “girl” robot he meets,  so we are sitting on her couch, and i carelessly let my hand fall to the ocuch next to her, and there it sits, so i tried again, i carelessly put my arm up, the coventional date movie for high school kids, or maybe it’s juinor high school kids these days? but anyway, she moves away.  so anyway, i left and wrote her back that we should get together on new years, and we did, she took a pass on my suggestion that we take our dogs out, instead saying lets get a movie and some take out once again, this time i got to pick the movie, let me tell you there isn’t much in blockbuster’s new arivals section, but i saw iron man, and she said she really wanted to see it, (it was an increbible dissapointment)  and again she was a cold as a cuecumber, staying under her blanket the whole time. 

so anyway,  i decided that i was going to wait for her to write me if she wanted anything more out of me, that was almost a week ago. and she hasn’t written me, called me or anything, am i right to just say oh well?   cause i’ve been really wanting to just say wft, and move on, but something has keep me from moving on.  and i don’t know what it is.

I’m not even sure what i saw in her from the begining, she has a dog (cool) but it’s not a real dog,  (just a toy), she’s never seen the occean, never traveled anywhere execpt to colorado, from illionios.  she drives a chevy tracker, for gods sake (though it doesn’t feel like a death trap oddly enough, probably because it’s loaded up with sound dedening, it’s a 98) she doesn’t even know how to swim, i wasn’t aware that it was even possible for a child to grow up in america with out knowing how to swim in this day and age.  i mean really what the hell did i see there?

 

NP: rainer maria, Catastrophe

but i’ve got a plan, i’m gonna find you, at the end…, of the world, at the end of the world,,