a friend of the devil, is a friend of mine

I find my self wondering if people actually believe in that whole “a Christian company in support of Israel” garbage

It’s like you tried killing our lord and savor, you had us thrown to the lions, but now where glad to have you around, just stay the fuck over there.

we’ll send you guns and money and so forth. just stay there so you can get blown to fuck, and then the end of the world will come and we will be abandoning our cars and houses and kids as we are whisked off to the happy happy joy joy land.

but i guess some people as stupid enough to believe anything. 

I mean just look at the Mormons.

I mean really, they believe that their lord joe smith, say these writings on gold tablets, and when someone took away the book he’d written, he said he could just rewrite it, but it would be different this time, cause god had changed the translation in the mean time. 

but somehow they have it more together than the rest of us on a whole. 

maybe being simple really is better?

NP: greatfull dead, friend of the devil

had one of those days when you want to try heroin, drunk driving, some from of soft suicide

it’s not really been a bad week, but it has been far from a good one,

I don’t know, everything just looks so damm depressing outside.  It’s nice enough, or at least it has been, on friday it was really windy, followed by smog, followed by snow, followed by nice weather again. but by sat, it was really nice out,  not a cloud in the sky save for the contrails left by the jets takeing people somewhere better….

but everything is gray, and/or brown, everywhere you look, there was a house which was so nicely painted a year ago, really light line green, with drak green trim,  over the course of the year it’s faded and chipped off in the areas where the sun hits it, in the spots where the sunlight doesn’t reach, it’s still vibrant and colorfull.  but only on the north side of the house. 

add to that the fact that, well the ecconomy is in the toliet and no one in charge of anything seems to have the slightest idea what to do about it.  i mean really, no propsals to get more people working, stuff like rasieng the amount workers get paid for overtime, and limiting the hours they get to work before paying them overtime, say 36? 32? hours a week, and you can have part time employees but they still get the minium wage, 7.15X32 or whatever, and bennfits, well  they should all get bennifits, but that shouldn’t inculde health care, that should be nationailized.  (and no one should be able to get a “contract job” where they are paided regaless of how much they work, unless they really are an independant contrator) 

why are the big three automakers failing? it’s not the crappy products that they make,though i beleive that they make some of the crappyist products on the market today, no it’s health care costs.  well that and the unions. 

unions are a very good thing, i’m a member of the NTEU chapter  32, i have them to thank for a 2K rasie( this year, and come june it will be good for another ~4k),  but in the same breath, i have to say that an auto worker, a high school drop out, can be making $80K/ year for a job that could easily be repalced with a robot, and when he gets fired, he still collects pretty much all of his wages,  there is something wrong with that.  and that’s what the unions represent, at least the auto unions,  where someone can go to school and become someone who designs the cars, and gets less money than a person who dropped out of school and builds them?  (at least to start) that’s pretty damm wrong.

but anyway, I’m still depressed, and nothing is really helping.  even the idea i had some time ago, of taking this summer off to hike the appalican trail isn’t much help, they don’t allow dogs in national parks, and the north and south parts of the trail are all national parks:(  the rocky mtn trail is national park in the middle, so i guess that’s one up, but it pretty much means i’m about half as likely to take the summer off to go on a hiking trip….

NP: leash, by the Weakerthans,

open the door, i can’t stay here anymore.

you know what kind of cool, now that obama is actually in the white house, everyone is amazed at how poorly he’s got it, and here’s the amazing part, he’s saying how bush fucked up the contry. and everyone in the media is surpirzed by this. 

one the one hand, i can’t blame them, for eight years they’ve been spoon fed the news, they could have gone out and looked for themselves, but why? when the president was happy to just hand you propiganda and all you had to do was report it. 

some smaple headlines:

New White House website debuts with surprisingly candid bios

White House stops all pending Bush regulations for review

Obama calls for halt to Gitmo prosecutions

I just hope he’s got the guts to go after bush for war crimes, since he admiteed gulit in an iterview druning the last week of his presidentcy.

in other news, I’m sort of a tiny bit disapointed now, i got through the first stage in getting a job in portland, which should be great, I mena it is great, but it means i won’t be able to take a summer long camping trip accross the applicatin mtns.  and i really want to take a long camping trip now.

I’m still not entirely sure how that would work, would i just drive somewhere in a cheap car, and leave it there, then pickup another at the end? maybe i could convince someone to drop me off and pick me up? i mean that’s the way i ought to do it, but who? cause my folks can’t take that much time off… could you, in reality take off for probably three days twice over the course of three months? cause i could use a ride:-P

should i even take that much time off, with the econmy in the toliet and not likely to improve, is quiting my job really the right thing to do? etc…

Magnapop, open the door

Everything is good these days
But all of my friends are dying
Davy may and Lisa may
But nobody else really wants to stay
Nobody else really wants to stay

I said
Open The Door
Open The Door I can’t stay here anymore
Open The Door
Open The Door

Candle light the streets at night
Thinking you’re wrong but you know that you’re right
Thinking you’re wrong but you know you’re alright

I said
Open The Door
Open The Door I can’t stay here anymore
Open The Door
Open The Door

Everything is good these days
But all of my friends are dying
Careful when you say goodbye
Careful stays and careless dies
But careless is and careful tries

Open The Door
Open The Door I can’t stay here anymore
Open The Door
Open The Door

Open The Door
Open The Door I can’t stay here anymore
Open The Door
Open The Door

we kidd ourselves that there is future in the fucking, but there is no fucking future

How can it be 60 degrees out when i’m going to work, ~11am, then at 4PM, it’s like thirty degrees out? and then when i get off of work, 8:27pm, it’s like fourty, and then when i’m takeing my dogs for a walk at 11PM, it’s 25 degrees out.

I just don’t get it.  oh, and add in 100mph winds before the sun even came up as well.  the sun was out all day, and yet it got colder as the day went on, till after it set, and then it started getting warmer. 

god i want out of this place.  and even considering that i started looking online for a new house, it appears i can get a house for cheaper than renting an apartment:( a real house, with a garage and a yard and everything.   but then, i did look in some other places, in detriot, i can get a huge place in a semi decent neighborhood (by detriot standards) for less than 10K, in somewhere i wouldn’t mind living, it’s going to cost at least 100K, but even that is less than rent here.   (figure 100K, = ~550/month)

it almost makes me happy to have a job at all.

NP: los Campesinos!, We Are Beautiful, We Are Doomed

Fool enough to almost be it, Cool enough to not quite see it

So i’ve been thinking about classic rock albums lately.  not the “classic rock” but the stuff they put out right about the time i was going into high school. like nerviana

the ablum came out in 90?91? sometime in there. and its supposedly the ablum that changed music forever.  the ablum that shaped tastes for at least ten years to come, I’m of course talking about nivana’s smells like teen spirt. 

i owend the album twice. one i got sent it as part of the music club i was in back then, bmg, or columbia or whatever. and i never listened to it.  i mean really, i wound up selling it to micah back freshman year in high school still wrapped up.  i had heard nivana, but never really listened to it.  it would come on the radio, and i’d hear something, but nothing worth paying attecntion to.  so when he put it on, i was pretty impressed, hey that’s an ablum i should have, so a year or two later, i bought it.  and i listened to it and listened to it, but i just didn’t find it all that great.  i didn’t mind it,but i just didn’t like it.

I really tired to like it, i mean it was the one ablum that all of my friends loved, it was an ablum that, years later i found out was one of te defining ones of our generation (or maybe it was the gerneation before mine, it’s hard to keep track or which generation i’m in, not quite gen x, so technically gen y)  but it wasn’t anything great.  i mean loads of people had done the very same stuff right before, and loads more started right after, and to tell the truth, they all did it better.  but still not great.

and there were other bands, smashing pumkins, for example, i loved there second album, i still listen to it on occasion, as i am now, it’s a really amazing album, but there first album? meh.  and their thrid? the infamous double album, menoncllin and the infinate saddness? it was crap.  it sounded like they were trying to aleinate their fans, “hey guys i’ve got an idea, lets put out an ablum that’s crap and see it anyone buys it?” and people did. and i had to pretend i was a smashing pumkins fan because they put out a crap album and everyone liked it, except the few older friends i had, like ryan who said “meh, there older stuff was better” 

it wasn’t untill a few years into college that i started to hate niviana though, and that was only because of what it had become, a frat boy anthem, much like seeing rage against the machine for the first time in 97, “hey it looks like a bunch of drunken frat boys out there” zach said, and everyone in the crowd cheers.  they started playing it before anything even remotely alternative came on in the local clubs.  were waiting for yo la tengo tocome on, and there it is, smells like teen spirt, waiting on the dismemberment plan to come on, and there it is again.  i guess thats why he ended up killing himself, but that only made it bigger, worse.

i guess i should hate them for this sort of crap, i mean it was wierd growing up in an age where the football players and cheerleaders listened to the same sort of stuff as the geeks and the outcasts. but i don’t really have any bad memories of high school because of it, no one was really judged on their musical tastes, or much of anything, seeing as how in my high school, we were pretty much all geeks by the standards of the average high school.  it wasn’t untill ~ freshman year in college that the sports poeple started getting into rap and they left us with our own music…

but to a certain extent all of my friends are hipsters, sorry to say. it didn’t hit me till ryan mentioned it at the nick cave show, “i’m so glad i never became one of those hipster dudes” and i stated thinking, mutton chops, unshaven, we paid $45 to see nick cave? yeah we are all hipsters…..

and thats both a good thing and a bad thing.

np smashing pumkins, Mayonaise

what does this city have to offer me? I just can’t see

So i have no idea what;s going on in my head.  I was increibly cheerful this morning. even after i read my email that said i’m not moving to new mexico:(  I failed the test, which was no entirely unexpected, it was an irs test, with two potentailly right answers for each question, and three wrong answers, and the wrong answer was the “right one”  but i was still cheerful and upbeat.  the markets were hell, i lost almost 25% of my investment, but still cheerfull (admitely a hundred bucks was betting on ford for a bail out, but no dice)  it really didn’t matter what was going on in the world, this really pontentaily atractive girl from work ask me to go to a party on satuday, (i say potentaily atractive, because she wears enitrely to much make up, and really slutty looking clothes, high heels, the whole nine yards, i’ve seen her almost every day for close to six months now and i’ve never seen her without all that shit on her.  she’d be so hot in a t-shirt and jeans, but instead she trys entirely to hard and comes off as kind of slutty.) i was ok, (though i didn’t commit to going to the party, she said she’d give me the info on it tomarrow.  i don’t know though, i’ve heard from other people that she’s really not that intelegent, but those people were women…  i should get some action, it’s coming up on a year of celabacy now…

even when i got to the gym and relized that i had forgoten my lock/even a quarter, so i couldn’t use the lockers and thus, couldn’t use the gym.  but somewhere between driveing away from te gym, and getting home, i think it was filling up my car for like $24 i started to get depressed.

and i don’t know why, the weather has been amazing here for a change, sixtys, even hiting the high seventiesa couple of days back. and then last night, it snowed, and today it was to cold to ride my bike to work.  but keep in mind that didn’t get me down (i mean after all, it is the second half of nov, and i’ve only been prevented from riding to work for three days total) so it should have been the weather tat was getting me down, but it didn’t. or at least it didn’t untill i was pretty much done with it, i still had to walk my dog, but that’s it.

anyway, inspite of my current state of depression,  i still retain hope for the future.  not getting the job with the irs opens me up to getting the job with the census.  and after all, it’s not like my current job is going anywhere, i mean i’m in collections, and the presidents policys have led us, into what may well be the next great depression (i don’t envy mr obama’s job for the next four years, and it gives me more than a bit of fear since the opposition party has mr romeny and mrs palin comeing up for the presidency next time), it’s not like my job isn’t in a growth industy if you catch my drift.

NP  Camera Obscura ”lets get out of this counrty”

there’s something happening here, what it is ain’t exactly clear

“This shit’s over folks, Obama’s got PA by a landslide this far, and all the Obama loving counties around Philly haven’t reported yet. And Fox has him projected for the win in OH.

Pour yourselves a drink.”

and the electoral college looks like a landslide, 349 to 144

Thank god:) it’s time to celebrate tomorrow get down to the actual work, the work that will probably cost him the election in 2012.

NP buffalo Springfield for what its worth (written by one of my uncles friends, Stephan something or other) it’s got an amazingly haunting start off,  bump, bump-babmup, bump, ting

“there’s something happening here, what it is, ain’t exactly clear, there’s a man with a gun over there, a’ telling me i got to beware, I think it’s time we stop, children, what’s that sound, everybody look what’s going down. 

there’s battle lines being drawn, no body’s right, if every body’s wrong.  young people speaking there minds, a’ getting so much resistance from behind. it’s time we stop, hey what’s that sound, everybody look what going down.

what a field day for the weak, a thousand people in the street, singing songs and carrying signs, mostly say hooray for our side.  it’s time we stop, hey what’s that sound, everybody look what’s going down.

paranoia strikes deep, into your life it will creep, it starts when you’re always afraid, step out of line the man comes and take you away, you’d better stop, hey whats that sound, everybody look whats going down”

i’d do away with the pixies, if you could give me something more

 

 

 

 

 

 

Please let it be so, i don’t know how many more stolen elections i can take. might it be this one where i and millions of my fellow countrymen (and women) finally flip out and start shooting everyone with a mccain/palin bumper sticker on their car (or would knifeing them to death be better?, or clubing them with baseball bats? let it not be said that i’m not open to new ideas… with a fucking “McCain for president” flag in their front lawn? and esp the people with bush in ‘04 stickers, those are the ones i want dead before we even start going after the idiots who chose to remain here….

just for referance, where i stand on the political spercturm:

np ben lee, away with the pixies

if she tried to bann books, you knowwe can’t have that

 

ok so i don’t know what’s wrong with my attemp to post a youtube blog here, so just click on either of the links in the prior post:) and for those of you who are to stupid to do that just click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C6urw_PWHYk

if she really thinks dinosours were here four thousand years ago, we, well we can’t have that

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