got me a ride and a reason to ignore you
March 28, 2011
I don’t exactly know why I haven’t been inclinded to write anything here for, you know the last year, but I haven’t.
It’s not like my life is going well. it’s not, it really really isn’t. I’ve been on the verge of quiting my job for I don’t know, maybe since I got it, but it was only in october that I started to take it seriously.
I hate my job. it’s entering data into spread sheets. that’s it. it’s not something you need a college degree for, I’m pretty sure you need the ablity to read to do it, but there isn’t anywhere for me to move up to. my boss just looks at the things I entered into the spreadsheets, along with other people, and the projects how much money we need in the future. (there is an avg fuction in excel which would remove him from the equation all together, but best not to point that out)
I can’t think of a more worthless job. but I would be glad to have it. if it weren’t in such a worthless town. Havre mt isn’t experiancing the depression. it’s actually in a period of job growth. and so while I pay almost nothing to stay here, the landlord wouldn’t consider renting to me if I had dogs. not for 4 times the rent. (1k which I could afford) nor would anyone else in town. The town has a walmart, a iga, and a couple of small stores. two “malls” which are strip malls, with about three stores each. which would be kind of cool, except it also had snow from november up until last week on the streets. talk about depressing.
so for about the last couple of months I have been draging myself from week to week, in the hopes of getting out. but of the interviews I have had, only one of the jobs has actually gone to someone, and I’ve had more than 15 interviews. probably more than 30 if you included the calls/emails to verify I actually work for DHS. and one job, which I didn’t get, there were about a dozen jobs which were canceled, two of which really encouraged me to apply once the conituning resolotuion was passed.
I know it’s only about 75 more days I have to stay here to get a pension, such as it may be. but my god those 75 days are taking forever to get here. (I started counting only a few days before, at 110)
It’s been tempting to just drive home every day when I start my car to go into work, it’s not just when I turn off to head home anymore. my car is already pointed in the right direction, I have to turn around to go to work.
And I’m awfully temped not do it.
but I’m still waiting to hear back from so many jobs, most of which i don’t get to have if I don’t work here anymore….jobs in long beach and san degio, boston and mami….
np, California wax
