if you want to be a martyr, try harder

sorry I haven’t been writimg here more. but my computer is sort of broken. along with my old car,  my life, not to mention my bank accounts.

it’s a little depressing.

plus the girl with homeland security told me last week, it may well be a month or more before you hear from us, and that will just be us telling you that it will be another three months before we can actually hire you.  four fucking months in the future, and that’s on the job where I can expect to hear from them soonest.  the other jobs, one of which I really want, and import speicalist, the won’t even know who they picked for another 6 weeks beyond this one, and at that point it’s going to be another three months at least before I actually get hired…

mmakes me want to go work for jiffy lube….

I’d probably be better off finically, ~16/ hr doesn’t go very far. it covers my rent, my car payment, my normal bills, and that’s abou it, if I want food, i have to be really warm that month…. at least I’ll be getting a raise in roughly seven weeks.  ~150/ pay check doesn’t cover much, but it would cover foor for myself and my dogs.

I don’t know how much longer I can stand to stick around, it’s already so fucking hot that I can’t leave my dogs in the car for ten minuetes, they were both overheated when I got back.  and it was only ~seventy five  out.  and i was hurrying. the humidty is just unbarable.  and it’s no where near as bad as it’s going to get….

I can’t even imagine it being to hot to sit on your ass and watch a nascar race, but it gets to hot to sit in the shade and watch race cars go around in cicles.  and it’s months long….

I really hope I get the job in long beach…

NP: braid, The New Nathan Detroits